Feeling: crummy
Whats Going On:
I was feeling pretty shitty until I just got a call from Justin. I told him how I got fucked over by Adrian last night and he said he'd tell him off for me and he'd give me a big hug when I see him monday. After school we're going to denny's to pig out which made me happy. I love Justin and Liz. Them and Jayne are the best friends I have.
So yeah about yesterday. Adrian was to come to nonna's with me so we could have sex. I was really excited and Antonio and Johnny cheered me on. So we get there and shites getting hot and heavy, I kiss him everywhere, I even put the condom on with my mouth and he goes limp and says he couldn't do it. I was like no, not another jamie! I thought he was really nervous and he said he wasn't ready and was confused and depressed. I consoled him and tried to get him to relax. Then he said he wasn't ready for relationships or dating and that I will one day find the right guy. We sat in silence for like half an hour until he finally left. I felt like utter shite cuz once again I got fucked over. I cried and cried. Played Johnnys drums and tried calling Justin but he wasn't home so I called Jayne and she made me feel so much better. But I also popped a lorazepam...I've been popping a lot of those lately.
So yeah school starts on monday. I haven't bought any books or clothes yet. I was gonna ask Aunt Rita to come with me to yorkdale but she went to clean out nonnas house in new market and I don't feel like being alone right now. So I'm getting Lisa to take me around some warehouses tomorrow when I come home. I hope it won't be a gruelling task to find clothes that fit me right and are school appropriate.
Tonight me and Johnnys buddies are going to the Kelseys as usual then to Picadillys to get drunk yet again. They are going to try and hook me up with Josh whom we nicknamed "Chops" cuz he has the most beautiful teeth I've ever seen on a person. He is so hot and sarcastic which I love. But i'm not really expecting anything to happen. At this point I just want to get laid lol.
Anyway I'm gonna go take a bath and Jayne if ur readin this don't forget about Nip/Tuck tonight!
