Feeling: depressed
Whats Going On:
Well it appears Adrian is still in fact "single and looking"....what a fucking jerk. He made moves on me then lies about not being ready for anything. He got his blowjob so it doesn't matter I guess. Fuck this and fuck him.
Today was another boring day at school....I feel like talking to someone there about the fact that I am always struggling not to fall asleep and I know its cuz of my meds, that way I won't look as bad. And I've pretty much learned to sleep with my eyes open which is no help what so ever. This week was nice because we did a lot of group work and it was so cool talking to the older people and hearing their stories about their kids. I wonder if dad says good things about me. Oh yeah dad really liked his birthday gift and card which made me feel good. In his card I thanked him for everything and said I loved him which is something we don't say in this family since dad nor Steven show any emotion other than anger.
Tomorrow we're getting our electric piano back that was damaged in the flood. I'm excited to start fiddling on it and practice the Dukes of Apollo song that Antonio taught me.
I think I'm supposed to be going out with Jayne, Jenny and Kieran tomorrow but I have to call and find out. I really need to keep myself busy so I don't get even more depressed and angry over Adrian. Johnny offered to kick his ass but I'm not a violent person...well only to myself.
I want to go shopping. I feel like doing so much but can't seem to get myself to do any of it. I'm so lazy and am already in the routine of going to sleep as soon as I get home from school.
Anyhoo I'm off.
Oh yeah I added some new pics to my album so check em out.
Tomorrow we're getting our electric piano back that was damaged in the flood. I'm excited to start fiddling on it and practice the Dukes of Apollo song that Antonio taught me.
I think I'm supposed to be going out with Jayne, Jenny and Kieran tomorrow but I have to call and find out. I really need to keep myself busy so I don't get even more depressed and angry over Adrian. Johnny offered to kick his ass but I'm not a violent person...well only to myself.
I want to go shopping. I feel like doing so much but can't seem to get myself to do any of it. I'm so lazy and am already in the routine of going to sleep as soon as I get home from school.
Anyhoo I'm off.
Oh yeah I added some new pics to my album so check em out.