Feeling: lazy
Whats Going On:
I was just at Justins for the afternoon but decided not to sleep over because I know dad would rather me be home while I'm in school. We didn't go to the gym as planned but I understand that Justin isn't feeling the greatest right now because him and Liz's relationship is still on the rocks. They argued a little bit in front of me which was très uncomfortable. I hope they can get things back on track.
I started my new class today and it was so fucking boring. Its more like an independent learning class and today's exercises were really easy. I ordered the wrong book for the class and even if I were to order the right book it wouldn't come until thursday or friday and my exam is thursday. So I'm pretty much royally fucked. The prof pointed out some chapters in my book that would be helpful which was nice but I will still struggle on the test I think. And not many of us in the class have the book as well or are already sharing with other people. I don't know what to do. I don't want to fail. I will never make this mistake again. I'm such an idiot.
I'm gonna go stay with Johnny for the weekend which has me really excited. I may skip fridays class and leave thursday but we'll see. I should book a doctors appointment cuz something isn't right with these new meds and Justin has me concerned because of my dose's and such. Basically before I was either feeling okay or extremely sad compared to now where I'm either extremely happy or extremely sad. Its very rapid changes but I still feel suicidal when I'm extremely happy. Like I get tempted to jump in front of a car just to do it or cuz I feel invincible. I dunno, its just really weird.
I added a few more pics of myself and stuff. You may notice I am in love with my new hat ;)
I added a few more pics of myself and stuff. You may notice I am in love with my new hat ;)
